I'm Guessing

Dear Readers,

So you all know that I am on crutches because of surgery in January and I was hoping to be off of them by now.  Unfortunately that is not going to happen.  I'm going to have to be on crutches for another six weeks and I cannot use my left leg for much of anything at all due to a hairline fracture in my pelvis.  I would explain more, but it's somewhat hard to explain and I will spare you the boredom.   

  With this new development in my legs I am struggling to see what God is doing.  I thought He had given me enough patience by now, but their must be something else that He wants me to learn from all of this.   My mind keeps telling me to take over and make my life MINE, but when I can't even walk without sticks on each side of me God pretty much has me tied down and listening.  I am continually having to give myself over to Him and trust that He will heal me in His time, though I wish with all my heart it could be my time.  Everyday, every morning, I have to put myself at the feet of God all over again.  He has blessed me with some very cool God moments and taught me some pretty awesome stuff when I make that decision and give my future over to Him, but the human side of me always seems to wake up in the morning and override His plan.  How crazy is that!  No really how many times do we go through our day and we try to override the God of the universe!  When I think of things that way it makes me realize how much more I have to learn.  That is my prayer as I write this tonight.  That I would lay myself before God and let Him be who He is, my God and Father, and I'm guessing that His plan will be way better than mine.

  

   Over this summer I am challenging myself to post at least every other week with an update on what God has taught me that week.  Along with that I will post an update on how God has been working at camp as I will be out there serving most of the summer.

  I will be praying for all of you and I would greatly appreciate your prayers for my healing as well.  Stay strong for Christ and have fun guessing where your life will go, but let God take control.  ;)

Megs

And I don’t know how the story ends

But I'll be alright cause you own it

I don’t know where the highway bends

But I’m doing just fine

Cause your in control

Even when I don’t know

Where my life’s gonna go

You’re keeping me guessing

~chorus of 'keeping me guessing' by Francesca Battistelli

Prayers, Songs and Sayings

Dear Readers,

For this post I just want to muse and share my thoughts with you.  I'm going to paste some of my poems, songs, and prayers for you to see and hopefully you will find inspiration and hope for your life.  There are so many things I could say, but I would rather share some of my musings with you because that is the easiest way for me to express myself.  I will be praying for you all.  Please enjoy and ponder these writings.  If you have any thoughts or challenges for me, or anything that you would like me to post on please let me know at megmusic1@gmail.com

Your sister in Christ,

Megs

~Reaching~

Reaching for the sky.

Watching the clouds go by.

I dream.

Of many days gone by,

Of many calenders thrown away.

Of many flowers hidden to remember days of completion and pain.

Reaching for the sky

Watching the clouds go by.

I remember.

The many days gone by,

The hours I wish I could take back.

The flowers hidden to remember days of completion and pain.

Reaching for the sky.

Watching the clouds go by.

I Reach.

I'm reaching for the days gone by,

I'm reaching for the times I wasted

I'm reaching for the flowers hidden to remember days of completion and pain.

I'm reaching for you.

A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart

and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.

-Unknown-

~Sweet Sixteen~

Verse 1

everyday I put up with my so called friends

I put up with myself, And somehow I still get played

They'll use me and I will accuse myself

Verse 2

every week I try to understand my so called friends

I listen to what they say, but somehow I still get hurt.

They'll neglect me and I will reject myself

Pre Chorus:

God I need your help to remember that this is not the end

Chorus:

Cuz Sweet sixteen is only the beginning

You have better things ahead then

All this pain, all these lies

I'm ready to hold on, to what you say

Cuz Sweet sixteen is only the beginning

The life You planned is more than 

The things they say, The people they play

Ephesians 4:25

Therefore each of you must put off falsehood

and speak truthfully to his neighbor, 

for we are all members of one body.

~UnNamed~

I bring this song to You

I sing this anthem from my heart

I know my voice is feeble and weak, but I am Yours.

The strength of who You are brings strength to my soul

The power of Your love brings power to my love

The awe of everything you are is why I live today

Though many voices sing around me

I raise this anthem from my heart

Though many more are stronger than I

I raise my hands to yours

The strength of who You are brings strength to my soul

The power of Your love brings power to my love

The awe of everything you are is why I live today

The passion that You radiate

The songs You brought to life

The life that You have given me

The dance You have arisen!

The strength of who You are brings strength to my soul

The power of Your love brings power to my love

The awe of everything you are is why I live today

Megs

Sweet Sixteen

Dear Readers,

Today I turned sixteen, and I am going to share a lesson God has been teaching me over the past month.   High school is a short period in my life.  Just because things may be going wrong now does not mean they will go wrong forever.  Like when we are in pain.   If we get a scrape the pain from that will go away, but when we have the pain from that all we can think about is the here and the now, "My finger hurts!"  and that sort of thing.  But if we remember that the pain from that scrape will only last a short while, it gives us a new hope and it almost decreases the pain instantly.  Life is the same way...many times we can only think of the here and the now.  Friends may reject us, that does not mean they will forever.  I am only 16,  life is not going to end because I can't walk well for a year.  There are many years to come and one year will seem like a blink of an eye.  So I want to pass this on to you, please remember that a bad day or a bad year is ok.  God has better ones planned.  Trust Him.  He is our Father and He loves us and is our best friend when no one else is there.   Sweet sixteen is not the end.  God has better things ahead that we could never imagine.  Sometimes we need that reminder to carry on.  

God Bless and I love you All!

Megs

Soldier

Just like a soldier you battle for my soul

More like a Father you come and take me home

~Chorus of Soldier by Bebo Norman~

Hey everyone,

Today I am going to focus on the first line of the quote above.   God is a soldier battling for our souls.  I just want to focus on that.  How awesome!  When I hear that (and read it) it just makes me smile.  It is so cool to know that God loves me so much He is battling for me, for my soul. 

   On the other hand I also think about that fact in a deeper way.  There is a war going on for me right now.  The spiritual battle is going on and I often forget that and give in to the temptations that Satan places in front of me.  Most of the time I give in to what ever he throws at me and don't even think about what I am doing.  I let my guard down and give the devil an opertune chance to strike.  

Eph. 6:13-15  (the message)

Be prepared.  You're up against far more than you can handle on your own.  Take all the help you can get, every weapon God has issued, so the when it's all over but the shouting you'll still be on your feet.  Truth, righteousness, peace, faith, and salvation are more than words.  Learn how to apply them.  You'll need them throughout your life.  God's Word is an indispensable weapon.  

  Right now I am fighting to apply faith to my walk with Christ.  As most of you know I had surgery in January and am in the recovery.  Let me tell you it is very easy to become discoraged on this long haul to healing.  Everyday I have to tell myself to keep going even when I don't see results right away.   I have to have faith in God.  I have to have faith that God will bring a full recovery to my body in time.  His time.  

  That is how I am growing into a better soldier at this point in my life. I am working hard so that I may fight for my soul right next to my Savior.  And win.  

~Megs

 

Falsehood vs. Truth

Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbor for we are all members of one body.

Ephesians 4:25

Dear Readers,

Have you ever lied when someone asks you how you are?  You know what I mean.  The old, "Oh I'm doing great! Did you know..."  And we escape the question quickly and efficiently.  How often do we do that?  Do we just answer everyone the same way?  Do we come up with a plan in our heads and act on it?   Really, how much would it hurt to just answer truthfully?   The verse from Ephesians that I posted above clearly states that we are to, 'put off falsehood.'  Why?  Because we are all part of God's body and when one of us mourns all of us are to mourn.  When one of us rejoices all of us are to rejoice.  But how can we do this if we are not truthful?   I know that I am asking a lot of questions, but I know that for myself they are much to often questions that I do not want to answer.  Sooner or later I know that I will have to face these questions and I believe that the longer I hide behind my lies the harder it will be to escape them.   So I am choosing to step out and break this sinful habit.  That does not mean I will start to bawl when someone asks me how I am.  It also does not mean that I will shriek my head off in church if I find out I get to meet BarlowGirl. :) What it means is this: I will share and be truthful, but I will also be aware of my surroundings and choose when to share and when to listen.  I know that God will give me the right opportunities to cry and the right opportunities to laugh.  And so I ask you, please do not wait if you also struggle with this.  The best friendships are always built on honesty and God's love.  So let us work together as a body.  Let us mourn together and rejoice together. 

Love in Christ,

~Megs

The Horse And His Boy

1 John 5:14-15

...If we ask anything according to His will, He hears us.

Dear Readers,

Today I am going to ask you to remember the story of, "The horse and his boy" by C.S. Lewis. The story is about a young boy named Shasta who is escaping his master on a talking horse from Narnia. Together the horse (Bree) and Shasta go through many adventures and trials.  They race through desserts and meet up with two other runaways.  Towards the end of the book Shasta is walking on a path in the mountains talking to himself about how unfortunate he is.  He lists time after time in his life that something went wrong.  Then he realizes that something is walking at his side he asks this 'thing' who it is, 

  "One who has waited long for you to speak." The 'thing' answered him.  After talking with the creature Shasta eventually told 'It' all of his troubles.  The "thing" told Shasta that he had been there for each one of those trials. The "thing" was Aslan.

  God is like that for us.  We go through life looking at all of the "unfortunate" happenings often thinking we're alone.  We grumble and tell ourselves all kinds of lies about how bad our life really is.  We travel along this path until we  make the decision to open our eyes and see fact that someone is walking beside us.  Through each trial and struggle God is always with us.  

  Aslan opened Shasta's eyes when he told him of all the times in his past that he had been there.   The Lion had been there through all of the "unfortunate" things in Shasta's life and some way or another Aslan had made good come from each one.  

  God can do that for us.  He is here walking beside us waiting for us to speak, and when we speak he is there ready to listen.  He can and will make good come from the "unfortunate" things in our lives.  Showing us how he was there for the dark time times, and how he is here now.  

  He is ready and waiting.

  The only question is, are you going to speak?

~Megs

  "Who are you?" he said, scarcely above a whisper.

  "One who has waited long for you to speak," said the Thing.  Its voice was not loud, but very large and deep...."Tell me your sorrows."

~Taken from, "The horse and his boy" by C.S. Lewis~

Red Sky

Red Sky

Brandon Heath, Jason Ingram

There's a man on my street

He reminds me everyday

Better take what you can get

Cause there's nothing more than this

Daylight fades into the ground,

Oh Lord I need You now

Cover me

With a red sky tonight 

The promise of a better day to come

Sing over me

An angelic symphony

Tell me everything will be alright

With the red sky tonight

We're so taking with our fear 

Now we're folded up in shame

With our feet nailed to the floor

We're the only ones to blame

I can't help but wonder why

Nobody bats an eye

You can see it in the faces

Of all the passers by

Cover me

With a red sky tonight

The promise of a better day to come

Sing over me

An angelic symphony

Tell me everything will be alright

With the red sky tonight

I'll sail into the sun

And when the day is done

I need you in the night

To wake me in the dawn

I see you in the sun

When the day is done

It's the red sky

It's the red sky

Tonight

~Red sky at night, sailors delight, Red sky in the morning, sailors take warning~

God is our red sky at night.  He gives us hope for each day, prodding us on to live for Him.  In the midst of a hard day we can still rise up and support those around us because He is at our side. He's the red sky tonight.

~Megs